a flash simple note

 

it seems that he already move on…

i should be happy for him

but i just wonder

why this little part of myself don’t want him to move on?

(God, i beg for Your forgiveness, because i become so cruel now…)

 

this is how to ended an exam week ‘nicely’

baru menyadari ada 5 soal lain saat setengah jam sebelum waktu ujian berakhir. dasar bodoh.

about you and her (when love seems has to be ended)

when you still get stuck with someone you love
all the thing you know is not to let her go easily
eventhough there is not a clear relationship status
between you and her anymore

both of you are just friends now

you still let her live in your heart
remembering how you met her for the first time
laughing at some stupidness you make in front of her
keeping the pictures about two of you

you still let the hope fulfill your mind
you still let the hope fulfill your heart
you still tell yourself, “is it wrong to have the hope?”
you still believe that the hope will ended happily

but we have something
that unpredictable
that can kill you
it is called REALITY

finally,
reality tells you that she was gone
maybe for good, maybe forever
all those hope is vanished, just in seconds

do you still get stuck?

i believe you do
you just struggling so hard to make yourself move on
even it is not as easy as it said

maybe you feel some fear
scare that you can’t meet another person who can fulfill you as good as her
scare that you can’t forget those moments you had
scare that you can’t move on

just believe that…
things that happen is not a waste
just let it go

and do you believe in God, right?

He never sleep
He never close His eyes
He never make a mistake
He is watching you 24/7
and He knows what He doing

just believe in Him
and see what is happening next…

inspired by a short chat this afternoon. thank you so much.
and it is also a little note to remind myself. ^_^

jadi malas berpacar

status ini aku tulis hari sabtu sore, tanggal 3 oktober 2009.

gak tahu nih, lagi agak norak kayaknya.
uhm, kepikiran status kayak gini karena aku menyadari betapa bebasnya aku saat ini
mau ketawa-ketiwi ama temen-temen tanpa takut ada yang cemburu
mau jalan ama temen cowok juga gak masalah, siapa juga yang mau marah?
apalagi aku sering mendapati diri aku tiba-tiba udah ama temen-temen cowok aja
(disamping karena jurusan teknik sipil merupakan jurusan dimana jumlah laki-laki lebih banyak dari jumlah perempuan)

menyenangkan!!!

tapi, bukan berarti aku mau jadi jomblo selamanya loh…
aku juga wanita normal yang pengen punya suami nanti

hanya saja
aku merasa aku mesti calm down dulu dalam soal beginian
lagi pula, hati juga udah terisi kok

(ups! siapa yang ngisi?)

Tuhan.

hanya Dia, Dzat Maha Kuasa.
yang mampu memberikan rahmat pada umatNya
di saat terburuk sekalipun

nb:
sebuah tulisan norak di saat sang penulis menemukan anugrah di balik kesulitan